Most of my life was spent praying for things. I wish I could tell you that I enjoyed talking to God growing up, but I didn’t. God was sort of like my last resort. When Allie couldn’t fix things…I would be like, ‘heeeey God–by the way, can ya help me out?’
I think our lives are made up of praying about things–whether you are in a good place or not. Most include asking for signs, clarification, and His appearance. At least, my prayers are like that. I am guilty of always asking God to show up as if He’s not already there. Maybe it’s the comfort of it all or just plain silliness–I am basically asking God if he wants to hang out, LOL!
I think it’s neat to see our desires change when growing up–like our goals, jobs, hobbies, how we spend our time and relationships. Friendships expire while others are created. Sometimes it takes months and sometimes it may only take a day. I remember praying for things and looking back, I was blessed with more than I asked for. What a brat to only notice that recently.
Can I be honest for a second? In the past I tried to control things–even horrible relationships. Like the ones that I should be super embarrassed about. I won’t go into too much detail, but there were some that I really could have cared less about. I didn’t care if they ended it was just the word “break-up” that got me all out of whack. Imagining people saying that I am single again was probably my biggest worry. Imagine fighting with your sister or friend over a shirt. You’re trying so hard to get it out of their hands that it rips, right? Yeah, that was me fighting for that dumb relationship. I feel like I was fighting with God saying,”no, this is mine and you can’t have it.” Then it ripped. Thank GOODNESS it ripped. Sometimes we sacrifice who are in order to get it. But that’s not the way that it’s supposed to go, right?
My mom sent me an article today that really hit home. In fact, I may or may not have cried when reading it. But that’s not much of a surprise because I tend to cry happy and sad tears over just about anything these days. It was about God’s logic and timing.
TOTALLY MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.
Timing is something that doesn’t have a rewind or a fast-forward button. We often complain and wish that we could go back in time and fix this or apologize for that. Then you have those people who wish we could fast-forward through the hard-waiting seasons. Or maybe that’s just me?
Whether it’s your job, dating life, marriage, or financial situation–ya gotta wait it out and pray it out.
Here’s a clip from the article that really hit home with me. “If the timing had been different, things might’ve worked out for us. I was okay with that. I really was. I didn’t expect anything, especially anything good. It was too good to be true, and that made it easy for me to dismiss. If something like this happened (or almost happened) in years past, I would’ve been stressing over it. Working every angle to try to make it happen. But that’s not where I was. God had me somewhere different. I had been putting my future in His hands and was feeling good about leaving it there. I have a feeling that’s part of why it came to be in the end…because I was okay with it, even if it didn’t.”
I love this. This is some great stuff. I see many girls and ladies in my life that struggle with this. I can pick up on it because I am one of them. If we could just realize and REALLY understand that if we give it up–we might just get it. Or if you strive for last place, you might just get first. Most importantly, you have to die to live. It’s God’s logic! Yeah, it doesn’t really make sense and when you read it. I don’t think God intended for it to. Dig deep and process the idea of letting go.
Trust His timing. His timing and plan is immaculate.
I mean that and I fully believe it. I read lots of posts from girls that write about finding their dream guy, or their dream job, etc. I just want to encourage you and tell you that it’s not over. He is still working, maybe at a slower pace but great things take a lot of time. His plan is divine and His plan is good. Better than anything you could ever put together for yourself.
Now I am not saying that I haven’t been tempted to grab the remote and press fast-forward through the yucky stuff–because I have. But, all of this makes you who you are. You get to learn and feel things that you never have felt before. That feeling of peace and contentment is SO much better than the anxiety and fear that I felt in the past when chasing guys and playing tug-of-war with God. My season has given me that–an overwhelming amount of peace. I am almost to a point where I want to slow it down, because I don’t want to miss this. I don’t want to miss a single thing.
Here’s my point–give it up..completely. If it comes back to you–it’s yours to keep and you won’t question it. You will know that God believes that you’re ready. But until then, enjoy the ride. Seriously—take your shoes off and stay a while because it’s about to get good–real good.
This week I am memorizing some scripture. Wanna join me?
–> “Let us strive to know the Lord. His appearance is as good as the dawn. He will come to us like the rain, like the spring that waters the land. Hosea 6:3
–> “Blessed be the Lord, who has not left you this day without a redeemer.” -Ruth 4:14
–> “May the God of endurance and encouragement grant you to live in such harmony with one another, in accord with Christ Jesus, that together you may with one voice glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.” -Romans 15:5-6
–> “Finally brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, if anything is excellent or trust worthy, think about such things.” -Philippians 4:8